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  <updated>2008-03-23T13:55:56Z</updated>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chococankill26:2787</id>
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    <title>SONGS FOR GOD/ SONGS FROM HEAVEN</title>
    <published>2008-03-20T14:36:06Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-23T13:55:56Z</updated>
    <content type="html">THE ULTIMATE SONG OF PRAISE..MAGNIFICENT OBSESSION BY STEVEN CURTIS CHAPMAN&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;     I met Steven Curtis Chapman last year in Cathedral of Praise. His story is really inspiring. By the way this song is my all time favorite. The melody and the lyrics is superb.Truly, as what the song says, God is my magnificent obsession.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;lj-embed id="16" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;the lyrics&lt;br /&gt;Lord, You know how much &lt;br /&gt;I want to know so much &lt;br /&gt;In the way of answers and explanations &lt;br /&gt;I have cried and prayed &lt;br /&gt;And still I seem to stay &lt;br /&gt;In the middle of life’s complications &lt;br /&gt;All this pursuing leaves me feeling&lt;br /&gt;like I’m chasing down the wind &lt;br /&gt;But now it’s brought me back to You &lt;br /&gt;And I can see again &lt;br /&gt;This is everything I want &lt;br /&gt;This is everything I need &lt;br /&gt;I want this to be my one consuming passion &lt;br /&gt;Everything my heart desires &lt;br /&gt;Lord, I want it all to be for You, Jesus &lt;br /&gt;Be my magnificent obsession &lt;br /&gt;So capture my heart again &lt;br /&gt;Take me to depths I’ve never been &lt;br /&gt;Into the riches of Your grace and Your mercy &lt;br /&gt;Return me to the cross &lt;br /&gt;And let me be completely lost &lt;br /&gt;In the wonder of the love &lt;br /&gt;That You’ve shown me &lt;br /&gt;Cut through these chains that tie&lt;br /&gt;me down to so many lesser things &lt;br /&gt;Let all my dreams fall to the ground &lt;br /&gt;Until this one remains &lt;br /&gt;You are everything I want &lt;br /&gt;And You are everything I need &lt;br /&gt;Lord, You are all my heart desires &lt;br /&gt;You are everything to me &lt;br /&gt;You are everything I want &lt;br /&gt;You are everything I need &lt;br /&gt;I want You to be my one consuming passion &lt;br /&gt;Everything my heart desires &lt;br /&gt;Lord, I want it all to be for You &lt;br /&gt;I want it all to be for You</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chococankill26:2409</id>
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    <title>SONGS FOR GOD/ SONGS FROM HEAVEN</title>
    <published>2008-03-20T14:02:22Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-20T14:26:49Z</updated>
    <category term="nusic for god"/>
    <category term="sora e"/>
    <category term="iove alone"/>
    <category term="songs from heaven"/>
    <category term="strange dawn"/>
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    <content type="html">NOW that we're already done with the songs from hell, and we're already in the lenten season, It's a perfect time to listen to the heavenly songs dedicated for Jesus,&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Songs for God or Song from heaven for me does not necessarily mean it has theme of strong faith. It also includes extreme appreciation to life and happiness. The melodies are commonly light and the voices of the singer soars up to the sky. &lt;br /&gt;I also included Christian Rock songs which I prefer to listen more than the songs we often hear in the Catholic church. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The songs&amp;gt;&amp;gt;&amp;gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;1. LOVE ALoNE by Caedmon's Call&lt;br /&gt;         The song really has an excellent lyrics. I listen to this whenever my faith is shaken. And Then I feel better. Anyway thank you to the creator of this video. I don't have to provide the lyrics anymore.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;lj-embed id="11" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;2.SORA E- "To the sky"- Strange Dawn Opening theme-&lt;br /&gt;       That's what you call the voice that soars up to the sky. It felt like flying just hearing this song.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;lj-embed id="12" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;the lyrics&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Please let us know what features you would like to see on Anime Lyrics! Welcome to Animelyrics.com Guest. If you have a site account you can log in here.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Japanese...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Lyrics by Gorou Matsui&lt;br /&gt;Music by Kaoru Wada&lt;br /&gt;Performed by Eri Kawai&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Original / Romaji Lyrics English Translation &lt;br /&gt;dare mo mita koto mo nai&lt;br /&gt;kaze - kumo - suna - umi&lt;br /&gt;kokoro no hate no doko ka&lt;br /&gt;eien ga kagayaku&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;yume no tsuzuki oi kakete&lt;br /&gt;nakusu mono wa nai&lt;br /&gt;kizutsuite mo sagashiteru&lt;br /&gt;watashi no mirai e hane batakeru tsubasa ga hoshii&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;sora e ima yori mo jiyuu ni&lt;br /&gt;sora e doko yori mo tooku e&lt;br /&gt;sora e nani yori mo yasashiku&lt;br /&gt;sora e itsumademo&lt;br /&gt;meguru kisetsu ai no uta ga hibiku youni&lt;br /&gt;ryoute o hirogete watashi wa negai tsuzuke you&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;samishisa o nemuraseru&lt;br /&gt;mori - hana - hoshi - tsuki&lt;br /&gt;kinou no kotae wa mada&lt;br /&gt;shiranai mama de ii&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;tabi no hajimari wa itsumo&lt;br /&gt;areta daichi kara&lt;br /&gt;namae no nai tokimeki o&lt;br /&gt;sodateru chikara o itsumademo shinjite itai&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;sora e ima o nogasanai de&lt;br /&gt;sora e dare no tame demo naku&lt;br /&gt;sora e nani mo wasurenai de&lt;br /&gt;sora e nagareteku&lt;br /&gt;kono mainichi ai no uta ga todoku youni&lt;br /&gt;subete o yurushite watashi wa negai tsuzuke you&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;sora e ima yori mo jiyuu ni&lt;br /&gt;sora e doko yori mo tooku e&lt;br /&gt;sora e nani yori mo yasashiku&lt;br /&gt;sora e itsumademo&lt;br /&gt;meguru kisetsu ai no uta ga hibiku youni&lt;br /&gt;ryoute o hirogete watashi wa negai tsuzuke you&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;3. Carribean Blue - by Enya&lt;br /&gt;          Enya is really a genius in creating heavenly music than cleanses A PERSON'S mind. Like these two do to me.Her voice is superb.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;lj-embed id="13" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Aha ha I remembered that we used this track in our play in highschool. I miss that glorious dAYS. I will blog about it some other time..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;lj-embed id="14" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;4. kISEKI NO uMI-&lt;br /&gt;This one is very much similar with Sora E. It sounds like tribal at the beginning. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;lj-embed id="15" /&gt;</content>
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    <title>THE DARKEST HELL SONG EVER: DINNER AT HE DEVIANT PALACE BY CRADLE OF FILTH</title>
    <published>2008-03-17T16:53:41Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-17T16:53:41Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">I'm not in the mood to deal with hell songs anymore though there's more. So before i cross another boundary, let me share with you the darkest song i've ever heard so far. &lt;br /&gt;         i HEARD THS SONG first when i was in fourth year highschool from the music archives of my relative.Together with my group mates, we use this song as the background music for the war scene of our play.&lt;br /&gt;         i didn't know if its even a song. There was a voice, a distorted one, that you may not understand what he was saying. There were also disturbing voices of people crying and devil laughing.Its really scary.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;         Recently, I discovered that the distorted voice in this song was saying the prayer "OUr father" in other language. Perhaps latin. The video i got is creepy too. Its worth watching...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;         I'm not satanist but i find this satanic thing artistic.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;the video with subtitle&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;lj-embed id="10" /&gt;</content>
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    <title>HELL SONG NUMBER 3: ALICE BY COCTEAU TWINS</title>
    <published>2008-03-17T16:22:19Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-17T16:22:19Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">THE first thing one will notice in this song is the creepy melody. At first, I thought the lyrics is in another language except english. I was surprise that it is in fact an english song as i was searching for its meaning. Base on the story of this song, the girl "Alice" was killed by her beloved sweetheart named Nicolo. Just listen to it and let the lyrics help you to understand.&lt;br /&gt;          By the way, i wasn't able to find a video for the song but rather a still picture. But the picture is creepy itself and it may help you to visualize yourself in a dark world where Alice soul is.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;the video&lt;br /&gt;&lt;lj-embed id="9" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;the lyrics&lt;br /&gt; When I lost him ache&lt;br /&gt;Shudder shock of pale&lt;br /&gt;My, my true love&lt;br /&gt;Nicolo(whatever his last name was, sounds like eperdu?)these days are&lt;br /&gt;smoking days&lt;br /&gt;Though he won't see&lt;br /&gt;(Deceived me)You deceive me&lt;br /&gt;(With you)Erase it I will not&lt;br /&gt;(to stay)Touching a helix(didn't she know alex?)&lt;br /&gt;(I I will plead)Blotting an excuse you&lt;br /&gt;(alice, alice, alice, alice, alice)&lt;br /&gt;would share,&lt;br /&gt;(alice, alice, alice, alice, alice)&lt;br /&gt;who shall&lt;br /&gt;(alice, alice, alice, alice, alice)&lt;br /&gt;replace&lt;br /&gt;(alice, alice, alice, alice, alice)&lt;br /&gt;You&lt;br /&gt;When I lost him ache&lt;br /&gt;Shudder shock of pale&lt;br /&gt;My, my true love&lt;br /&gt;Nicolo(?) This mess I smoke away&lt;br /&gt;And he won't see&lt;br /&gt;(pushing me)Oops she fell&lt;br /&gt;(with you)Racin her bike&lt;br /&gt;(so you)touching her lies&lt;br /&gt;(not me)&lt;br /&gt;© 2001–2008 Uppercut Muisc</content>
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    <title>HELL SONG NUMBER 2: UNINVITED BY ALANIS MORRISETTE</title>
    <published>2008-03-17T15:56:47Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-17T15:56:47Z</updated>
    <category term="uninvited"/>
    <category term="hell songs"/>
    <category term="kanon and mai"/>
    <content type="html">My second Hell song will be Uninvited by Alanis Morrisette&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The song is reaaly sad. The music video that i WOULd post here is a japanese anime entitled 'kanon". I haven't watch it yet but i think the story will be go0d. The couple in the video tickles my bones...he he though its quite clear that their encounter is tragedy.I also want to cosplay the girl. She's cool.Is there somebody have a DVD copy of this series? May I borrow it? Thank You..CHE!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;tHE video&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;lj-embed id="8" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;the lyrics&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Like anyone would be&lt;br /&gt;I am flattered by your fascination with me&lt;br /&gt;Like any hot-blooded woman&lt;br /&gt;I have simply wanted an object to crave&lt;br /&gt;But you, you're not allowed&lt;br /&gt;You're uninvited&lt;br /&gt;An unfortunate slight&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Must be strangely exciting&lt;br /&gt;To watch the stoic squirm&lt;br /&gt;Must be somewhat heartening&lt;br /&gt;To watch shepherd need shepherd&lt;br /&gt;But you you're not allowed&lt;br /&gt;You're uninvited &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Like any uncharted territory&lt;br /&gt;I must seem greatly intriguing&lt;br /&gt;You speak of my love like&lt;br /&gt;You have experienced love like mine before&lt;br /&gt;But this is not allowed&lt;br /&gt;You're uninvited&lt;br /&gt;An unfortunate slight&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I don't think you unworthy&lt;br /&gt;I need a moment to deliberate</content>
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    <title>HEAVEN AND HELL SONGS</title>
    <published>2008-03-15T16:08:46Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-15T16:17:49Z</updated>
    <category term="hell songs"/>
    <content type="html">Welcome to my favorite songs...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My first category will be hell songs. For me, they are the songs that has dark melodies. Often they deal with grudges, anger, hate, loneliness, and other negative feelings a man could encounter, I listen to them whenever i am in the bracket of that negative thoughts. Somehow it helps me to release the feeling out of my chest.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I also added lyrics for you to reflect something.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;In no particular order, the first song will be EMPTY WaLLS BY SERJ tankian. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;HELL SONGS&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;EMPTY WALLS&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i heard this song deals about the september 11 terrorist attack. i like the way the children portray the war in the playground. It is disturbingly CUTE!!!!! Check it out&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Video&lt;br /&gt;&lt;lj-embed id="2" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;tHE LYRICS of empty walls&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Your empty walls... &lt;br /&gt;Your empty walls... &lt;br /&gt;Pretentious attention&lt;br /&gt;Dismissive aprehension&lt;br /&gt;Don't waste your time, on coffins today&lt;br /&gt;When we decline, from the confines of our mind&lt;br /&gt;Don't waste your time, on coffins today&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Don't you see their bodies burning? &lt;br /&gt;Desolate and full of yearning&lt;br /&gt;Dying of anticipation&lt;br /&gt;Choking from intoxication&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Don't you see their bodies burning? &lt;br /&gt;Desolate and full of yearning&lt;br /&gt;Dying of anticipation&lt;br /&gt;Choking from intoxication&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I want you&lt;br /&gt;To be&lt;br /&gt;Left behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;Taunt you&lt;br /&gt;to see&lt;br /&gt;From behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;When we decline, from the confines of our mind&lt;br /&gt;Don't waste your time, on coffins today&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Don't you see their bodies burning? &lt;br /&gt;Desolate and full of yearning&lt;br /&gt;Dying of anticipation&lt;br /&gt;Choking from intoxication&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Don't you see their bodies burning? &lt;br /&gt;Desolate and full of yearning&lt;br /&gt;Dying of anticipation&lt;br /&gt;Choking from intoxication&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I want you&lt;br /&gt;To be&lt;br /&gt;Left behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;Taunt you&lt;br /&gt;To see&lt;br /&gt;From behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;Want you to be&lt;br /&gt;Left behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;Taunt you&lt;br /&gt;to see&lt;br /&gt;From behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;From behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;From behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;The walls&lt;br /&gt;From behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I loved you&lt;br /&gt;yesterday, before &lt;br /&gt;you killed my family&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Don't you see their bodies burning? &lt;br /&gt;Desolate and full of yearning&lt;br /&gt;Dying of anticipation&lt;br /&gt;Choking from intoxication&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Don't you see their bodies burning? &lt;br /&gt;Desolate and full of yearning&lt;br /&gt;Dying of anticipation&lt;br /&gt;Choking from intoxication&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I want you&lt;br /&gt;To be&lt;br /&gt;Left behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;Taunt you&lt;br /&gt;To see&lt;br /&gt;From behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;Want you to be, left behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;Taunt you&lt;br /&gt;To see&lt;br /&gt;From behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;From behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;From behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;From behind those empty walls&lt;br /&gt;Those walls... &lt;br /&gt;Those walls...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My second Hell song will be Uninvited by Alanis Morrisette&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The song is reaaly sad. The music video that i WOULd post here is a japanese anime entitled 'kanon". I haven't watch it yet but i think the story will be go0d. The couple in the video tickles my bones...he he though its quite clear that their encounter is a tragedy.I also want to cosplay the girl. She's cool.Is there somebody have a DVD copy of this series? May I borrow it? Thank You..CHE!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Video:&lt;br /&gt;</content>
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    <title>MY FIRST FEATURED STORY-"Dennis Baliw!"</title>
    <published>2008-02-16T13:52:31Z</published>
    <updated>2008-02-16T13:52:31Z</updated>
    <category term="death"/>
    <category term="dennis baliw"/>
    <category term="suicide"/>
    <lj:music>hisoka-norowareta tsukiya no kioku</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Dennis Baliw!!!&lt;br /&gt;Sa isang bahay, mayroong kasiyahang nagaganap para sa mga taong mahilig sa mga taong may kalungkutan. Handa na ang kanilang mga cellphone na may camera iyong iba may videocam pa. May mga kumakain at matiyagang naghihintay. Lahat sila, nasasabik panoorin ang live act ng pagtitiwakal ng mga taong may kalungkutan.&lt;br /&gt;. 	&lt;br /&gt;Si Hazel, Boy Carlo at Sheena, sila ang mga artista sa palabas. Nagtipon-tipon kahit hindi magkakakilala. Lahat may isang kagustuhan, ang tuluyan ng mawala sa mundong kay lupit. Nagsimula raw ito kay Carlo, dalawampu’t limang taong gulang at siyang may- ari ng magandang bahay. Sa isang website, tahasan niyang ipinahayag ang kanilang pangarap na mamatay na may kasama. Maraming tumugon sa kaniyang panawagan. Ang iba’y nainis, mayroon ding naaawa. Tinangka pa ng iba na pigilan siya. Isang semenarista ang nagsabing mag- pare na lang siya. Kilalanin niya ang Maykapal. Siguradong matutuwa at gagaan ang kalooban niya. Ngunit ang isipan ni Carlo ay hindi nabago. Dahil mas nahalina siya sa mga taong nagseryoso sa kaniya. At sila na nga sina Hazel, Boy at Sheena, mga sira-ulong tulad niya.&lt;br /&gt;	Ang bawat isa sa knaila ay may mga pangarap sa kanilang kamatayan. Kung si Carlo, gusto lang ng kasama. Si Boy naman gusto ng manonood. Gusto raw niyang maging performer bago man lang siya mamatay. Kung maaari lang daw, kasama pa ang mga magulang niya sa mga manonood. Tutal sila raw ang totoong may kagustuhan na gawin niya ito. Si Hazel naman, simple lang ang nais. Maglaslas ng pulso tapos makinig sa mga paborito niyang musika, lalo na iyong mga kantang magpapaalala ng masasayang sandali niya sa mundo. Si Sheena gusto raw niyang mamatay sa napakalamig na lugar. Iyong matabunan ng yelo at manigas sa ilalim nito. Nakuha niya raw ang ideyang iyon sa nabasa niyang libro tungkol sa mga taong umakyat sa Mt. Everest. Ang sobrang lamig, nakakapatay ng brain cells ng unti- unti . Unti- unti ka ring makakalimot hangggang sa hindi mo na alam kung paano maglakad. Hanggang sa hindi mo na rin maalala pati ang sarili mong pangalan. At iyon ang gusto niya, ang malimutan ang lahat at maramdaman na malinis siya ulit, bumalik sa pagkabata na tanga at walang alam. &lt;br /&gt;	Bumalik naman tayo kay Carlo na gusto ng may kadamay. Bukod doon, gusto niya ng mabilisang kamatayan. Iyong wala ng sakit, basta patay agad. Kaya naisip niyang magbaril na lang sa utak o kaya sa puso. Pero ayaw niya raw na sumabog ang ulo niya kaya sa puso na lang daw. Ay ewan ang aarte nila!&lt;br /&gt;	Para paghandaan ang  araw na ito, nag-shopping pa sila at kumuha ng mga litrato habang namimili. Una nilang binili ay mga damit na susuotin nila. Napagkasunduan nila Boy at Carlo na mag-Aamerikana raw sila. Si Boy  kasi, hindi pa raw siya nakakapagsuot ng ganoon kaya iyon na lang daw. Si Hazel, ayaw ng bagong damit. May susuotin na raw siya. Si Sheena naman isang kakaibang damit ang gusto. Nagpabili siya ng isang itim na bestida na hanggang tuhod lang ang haba at mga samu’t saring itim at puting tela pa ang binili niya. Magtatahi raw siya.&lt;br /&gt;	May isang larawan doon na nakangiti si Boy habang nakapalibot sa leeg ang isang makapal na lubid. Ano kaya ang naging reaksiyon ng mga taong namimili rin sa lugar na iyon ng magpakuha ng ganoong litrato si Boy?&lt;br /&gt;	Si Sheena na gustong mamatay sa Mt. Everest, may litrato rin na nakahiga siya sa loob ng isang malaking freezer na karaniwang ginagamit para tumigas ang mga delatang sorbetes. Nakangiti siya at naka- anyong “peace” ang isang kamay. Siguro banas na banas ang nagtitinda ng freezer sa kanila.&lt;br /&gt;	Isang huling litrato, nakangiti silang lahat habang kumakain sa isang restawran. Kung titingnan para silang masayang barkada. Noong nakita ko iyon, naisip ko na baka nga tadhana na talaga nilang magsama-sama.&lt;br /&gt;	Hanggang sa dumating na nga ang araw na ito. Nandito na sila sa aming harapan. Tinitigan ko silang mabuti. Nilalasap ko ang bawat sandaling nakikita ko silang gumagalaw at humuhinga. Kasi kapag patay na sila, siguradong paulit-ulit kong sasabihin sa sarili ko na “Parang kalian lang, gumagalaw pa sila, nakatawa o ngumingiti pero ngayon wala na. Parang kailan lang.”&lt;br /&gt;	  Wala namang masyadong nabago sa damit ni Sheena. Nilagyan niya lang ng maliit na ribbon ang leeg niya tapos nilapatan ang palibot ng baywang ng tela. Mukhang naging kimono ang bestida. Bagamat halatang gusto niyang itago ang kaniyang bilbil, hindi siya nagtagumpay. Lalo nga siyang tumaba sa suot niyang damit. Pumasok siya sa loob ng freezer na kanina pa nagyeyelo. Nilagyan pa ni Carlo ng tabla ang ibabaw ng freezer para wala na talagang kawala si Sheena kung sakaling magbago ang isip niya. Nahihiwagaan ako kung ano nang nangyayari sa kaniya. Baka magikera pala siya. Mamaya makita na lang namin siya na nasa labas na pala siya ng bahay.&lt;br /&gt;	Inumpisahan nang laslasin ni Hazel ang sarili niyang pulso. Paulit-ulit niya hiniwa ang balat para siguradong malalim. Hindi pa siya nakuntento. Nilalaslas niya na rin ang isa pa niyang pulso. Parang galit na galit siya sa sarili. Parang ako pa ang nasasaktan sa mga ginagawa niya. Iyong isang babaeng katabi ko ay umiiyak na at gusto nang lumabas. Ako naman, bagamat naaaliw, gusto kong pigilan si Hazel sa ginagawa niya. Sa kanilang apat, siya lang talaga ang ayaw kong mamatay. Ang ganda niya kasi. Nanghihinayang ako. Ang totoo bago ako pumunta rito, iniisip ko na pipigilan ko siya. Bigla ko siyang hihilahin at tatakbo kami palayo sa lugar na ito. Kaso sa bilis ng pangyayari, hindi ko na nagawa. At saka sa panggigil pa lang ni Hazel na laslasin ang kaniyang pulso, parang ipinamukha na niya na wala siyang balak na sumama sa akin.&lt;br /&gt;	Tumugtog na sa kuwarto ang isang klasikong musika. Canon in D raw ang tawag doon. Napakasaya ng tugtog nito. Nguniti na si Hazel habang nakahiga sa isang kama. Nakabukas ang kaniyang bisig. Siguro, pakiramdam niya, lumulutang na siya sa ulap. Tila nakalma rin ang puso ko.&lt;br /&gt;	Handa na rin si Boy. Nakayakap na ang lubid sa kaniyang leeg. Nang sa wakas ay tumalon na siya, nagsigawan ang lahat. Pero lumapag pa rin ang paa niya sa upuan tapos tumawa. Maloko talaga. Nakuha pang magbiro. Ngunit sa lahat ng manonood, alam kong may dalawang tao lamang ang hindi makakayang tawanan ang biro niya. Sila’y walang iba kung hindi ang nanay at tatay niya. Naroon sila sa likod, nakatali ng lubid at may tapal ang bibig. Dinukot ni Boy, sa tulong ni Carlo, ang sarili niyang mga magulang kagabi para matupad ang gusto niya. “Ma Pa, mauna na ako sa inyo ha”, sumaludo muna siya sabay talon.&lt;br /&gt;	Hawak na ni Carlo ang baril. Pero ang nakatawag ng aming pansin ay ang dala niyang transparent na bag na puno ng tig-iisang libong perang papel. “Maraming Salamat sa pagpunta niyo rito. At dahil sa inyong kabaitan, sa inyo na ang perang ito oras na mamatay ako!” At itinutok na niya ang baril sa kaliwang dibdib niya. Pumikit na ang karamihan. Ako naman, nakatutok na sa transparent na bag. Oras na pumutok na ang gatilyo, paagawan na ang labanan.&lt;br /&gt;	“Bang!”, bumagsak na si Carlo. Nagsitakbuhan na ang gahaman sa pera. Masaya na sana kung hindi biglang umalingawngaw ang ilang serena. Bumukas ang pinto at mula rito pumasok na ang napakaraming pulis. Tinutukan nila kami ng baril. Huwag daw kaming gagalaw sa kinalalagyan namin. Kinuha rin nila ang transparent na bag. Kaya ang mga pera, naging transparent na rin.&lt;br /&gt;	Hindi na gumagalaw si Boy. Parang kalian lang, nagtalon-talon pa siya sa upuan na iyon pero ngayon, para na lang siyang damit na naka-sampay. “Marcelino Asuncion, labing siyang na taong gulang. Patay na!”&lt;br /&gt;	Ang crush kong si Hazel na mukha pa ring anghel kahit duguan na rin, ay hindi na rin humihinga. “ Hazel Rivera, labing walong taong gulang, Patay na!”&lt;br /&gt;	“Lahat siguro patay na.”&lt;br /&gt;	“Tanga may buhay pa. Ang bala hindi dumiretso sa puso kung hindi sa baga. Tanga!”&lt;br /&gt;	Nakaawa naman ang taong iyon. Ang inaasahan niyang mabilisang pagkamatay naging kasinghaba pa ng isang dekada. Narinig ko pa ang hininga niyang tila galing sa ilalim ng lupa. Nakadilat siya! Nakita kong nakadilat pa siya! Ang kaniyang mga mata’y sumasalamin ng pagmamakaawa. “ Ang tanga ko! Barili niyo na ako! Hindi ko na kaya! Napakasakit! Patayin niyo na ako!”&lt;br /&gt;	“Itong isa, humihinga pa.”&lt;br /&gt;	Binuksan ng tatlong pulis ang freezer at mula rito ay pinagtulong- tulungan nilang ilabas mula rito si Sheena na namuti na dahil sa yelong bumabalot sa katawan niya. &lt;br /&gt;	Pinakawalan din mga pulis ang mga magulang ni Boy. Humagulgol ang kaniyang ina samantalang tahimik lang ang ama. Malalim ang kaniyang iniisip.&lt;br /&gt;	Hinuli kami ng mga pulis. Pagkatapos kong ihayag ang aking salaysay at ibigay ang mga litratong nakuha ko, pinauwi naman nila. Inabutan kong nanonood si nanay ng balita sa telebisyon. Grabe naman! Bakit naman nagpakamatay. Ang bata-bata pa!” reaksiyon ni nanay. “Uy ikaw Dennis, kapag may problema ka, magsabi ka sa akin. Huwag kang magpapakamatay”&lt;br /&gt;	“Kahit kailan hindi ko gagawin iyon. Mga baliw lang ang gagawa no’n”, wika ko.&lt;br /&gt;	“Grabe naman! Marami pang nanonood sa mga nagpapakamatay. Nakuha pang picturan ang nagbigti. Mas baliw yata ang mga ito e. Ano ba iyan? Tingnan mo Dennis o, ang dami!”&lt;br /&gt;	Naku po! Makapasok na nga sa kuwarto!&lt;br /&gt;	“Oi, Dennis! Ikaw to ah!”&lt;br /&gt;Shet!&lt;br /&gt; &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;D END****</content>
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    <title>I have my first entry-aT LAST!!!!</title>
    <published>2008-02-16T13:30:28Z</published>
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    <content type="html">Hello Everyone!, I’m Shiawase (not real name), 19 years old, studying in Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila as a 4th year BSECE student.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I believe that I have multiple personalities. The only difference is I’m fully aware whenever I switch to another personality. It happens in times that I reached two extremities of my two halves. I will be depressed, think of all the negative thoughts, think of suicide, and with no particular happy reason I will be the happiest person on earth like I’m on a high on drugs. Don’t get me wrong. I haven’t tried it yet.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My friend, a nursing student, said that I’m bipolar not multiple personalities. Being bipolar is due to hormonal imbalance and would manifest itself by being too happy or too sad.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;To keep myself in balance, especially when I’m too down, I wrote short stories. Most of them are sad, emotional, dark and creepy. I also craved for disturbing and loneliness-driven songs. I rarely write happy ending stories because when I’m too happy, I’m in a party mood. Expect me to be talkative. I would sing like no one is around and dance like a pro. If I’m not in the proper place to do so, I will just imagine them.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So in general, I plan my blog to be&lt;br /&gt;1.	The compilation of my short stories and poems.&lt;br /&gt;2.	Mp3 Playlist of my favorite songs according to category.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My first story that I will going to feature here is the story about four doomed individuals who decided to kill themselves together in front of young audiences. It is written in Filipino and is entitled “Dennis Baliw!”. If you’re lazy to read, I have prepared an mp3 narration. There are two versions of it. One was narrated by me. If you want to torture yourself, listen to the version narrated by my 9 year old brother.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;In my Mp3 playlist today, the two categories will be Hell/Dark songs and Heaven songs. I also added the lyrics for you to reflect something. If you want to add songs in either of the two categories, just list them to your comment. I would like to check them out. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So read, listen and enjoy.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;lj-embed id="1" /&gt;</content>
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    <title>NALALAPIT NA !!!</title>
    <published>2007-11-29T09:24:15Z</published>
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    <content type="html">Malapit na akong magpost ng story. Makakapagpost na rin ako sa wakas!!!!</content>
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